Kelly

It's been interesting being alone here. My roommates are gone taking in the one week of summer they have been allotted. One week is a sucky summer....I know b/c I had that last year. These 8 months of summer have been amazing for me but back to reality I guess.

I wrote a very long and honest post yesterday and accidentally deleted it which I know is a blessing. One should never be to honest on the internet.

To give you insight to what might have been if my fingers had not been so clumsy as to accidentally highlight and delete:

I wrote about who I was 10 months ago. Why I truly decided to leave school for a semester. It was blunt and it was not funny but it was the truth. I don't know where this sudden bravada came from...to share something so personal. When I've written on here in the past it has just been the ramblings of a person who had a bad day or was confused about the future. Yesterdays post was enlightening and I'm not sure that I'm okay with that.

Sitting alone in a house for a week and a half practically has given me plenty of time to think. Which is a good thing. Right? I've decided a few random things which I'm happy to share being that they are not all that personal.

1. I do not like the Dole Factory. I went there once a month when we lived in Hawaii and I would rather not go back.
2. I'm proud of my name for these reasons:
a. I'm named after a hero
b. It's my families surname from way back
c. It's Irish
3. I like the fact that I look like my great grandmother. I think it's nice for my grandmother since she lost all of her family in the war.
4. I'm surprisingly less dramatic as I grow older- which seems to be the opposite of what happens to the other women in my family (but I guess give me time. Maybe I'm just in a plateau)
5. I don't like the fact that I cannot get in touch with my Mother. She's in Scotland.
6. It's much easier to leave than be left. At least when you leave it's an adventure.
7. If you add in 1/2 a cup of self rising flour to the already 2 cups of all-purpose flour it makes your cookies just a little too....salty
8. If you're at home alone you shouldn't make 5 dozen chocolate chip cookies from scratch because there is nothing else to do but eat them. All of them.
9. Driving an hour to have dinner with my dad is completely worth it. He's amazing.
10. Being honest is really very hard...it's like you want to tell everyone the truth but you don't want to complain...so if you're having a crappy day and someone asks you how you are...is saying fine a lie? I think this is something you figure out when you're 10 but I'm behind on the curve. As Andre 3000 says, "I'm just being honest" High school, anyone?

I'm rambling again. I'm tired but I'm happy and I think that's why I decided to come back from the hiatus I took from the "Bla(h)g".

I like life. Heck, I love it. I'm just trying to figure out if I'm living it the way I should.